Saturday, December 11, 2010

DenGar HaTi Ku BeRb!caRa..



Melalui hari-hari sepi,
Aku mencuba untuk bangkit berdiri,
Melalui ruangan yang sempit,
Aku cuba meloloskan diri..

Nah mungkinkah akan terjadi perkara seperti itu?
Atau aku akan terus tesungkur di dasar ini?
Ahh… aku tak pedulik,
Aku inginkan kembali sepertimana aku yang dulu..
Bangkit, Tegak, Berdiri sendiri tanpa sesiapa pun...

Bahagianya aku kerana hidup ku,
Bukan kerana MEREKA yang mencipta aku,
Pergi kau dari sisi hidup ku,
Rimas aku mendengar segala alasan mu..

Dasar si pengkhianat cinta!
Dasar si pemusnah kasih!
Nyah kau dari hidup ku,
Usah kau kembali mendekati aku,
Bosan aku dengan segala tipu helah mu…

Cinta itu suci, kenapa kau mengotorinya?
Cinta itu fitrah, kenapa mesti menindasnya?
Cinta itu ilham, kenapa mesti menolaknya?
Cinta itu pengorbanan, kenapa mesti kau korbankan segalanya?
Dan cinta itu juga buta, pabila kau tidak dapat melihat kebenarannya…

Setiap detik waktu itu putaran arus masa
Setiap saat itu putaran karma hidup
Hey si buta! Sekarang kau di atas dan aku di bawah
Hey si pekak! Sekarang aku tesungkur jatuh menangis kerana kau
Tapi hukum karma itu ada.. dan akan aku bangkit dari tiap kesakitan itu…

Melalui hari-hari gelap yang kau beri pada aku,
Akan aku keluar dari penindasan ini mencari bahagia aku..
Berambus kau pengkhianat!
Nyah kau dari sini!
Jangan berani kau tunjukkan diri mu mahupun bayangan mu pada aku..
Atau akan aku pastikan kau menderita sepanjang hidupmu seperti mana aku
Menderita kerana kamu….

Saturday, November 27, 2010

GraDuaSi @ McD...

ngaaa... terkedu sekejap baca entri dari cik NurLiyana Ramli hahaha... teringat zezaman masa mkn McD lepas balik sekolah.. hahaha.. mmg la kite ni dulu kanak2 raibena yg sangat2 riang gembira kan? ahak'z!! Ceritanye jadi sebab semalam haaa.. ye SEMALAM yg mane patutnye saya berjumpa dgn si NurLiyana Ramli ni besama dengan kwn sengal kami Cik Nur Aqilah Nur Ahmad tu.. tp dek sebab cik QIQI tu ade program lain.. langsung laa batal aktiviti semalam yg kununnye nk LUNCH dkt McD PANDAN MEWAH (mmg port lepak kite org la ni) dari zaman skolah smpai da sambung belaja kt kolej memasing same je sikit2 MCD.. tah hape best kt MCD ak pn tak tau.. ahakz..

nak di jadikan cerita pagi ni aku dok la belek2 gambar masa graduasi tahun lepas.. *eceh graduasi kau*
kekunun penanda dah habis zaman skolah la tu *blink blink- muka bangga*

 
Nmpak x? nmpk x kite org dah GRAD SKULA!!! hahaha


Aku, cik yana, pali @ cicak, yana razak, puteri, fiqa, aman dgn si adib ni buat la satu plan... kekunun laaa nak ckp mkn for last time before SPM , before lepas ni semua bwk haluan masing2 *tp mmg pn tu mkn last kami* so.. habis je majlis GRADUASI tu.. kite org pn ape lg chow balik.. tunggu sensorang hamba ALLAH ni dkt bus stop depan uma cik yana.. haaa.. tp sebelum tu aku lepak dulu rumah si fiqa dgn putri jadi ini la yg terjadi...

Cik Fiqa & Cik Putri dok bergamba daaaa......
so.. lepas da lepak uma si Fiqa dgn si Putri, aku pon dapat call *kringg kringgg* it was Cik Yana on the line hahaha... so aku jawap la mcm  biase, cik yana kata dia dh siap jom redah Mcd sbb hamba2 ALLAH tu da habis solat jumaat... Opss!! sebelum terlupa kite org punye graduasi ni hari Jumaat *amek barakah sikit penghulu segala hari tu* so lepas semua da kumpul ape lagi Mcd jom....

Haaaaaa... Ni la tempat Lepak peberet kite org!!!

Ok masa kt mcd pon kecoh memasing ada yg nk duduk bawah ada yang nk duduk atas.. jd sepakat undian LEPAK ATAS! bile seme da kat atas ingatkan teteram sekejap.. ruper2nye lagi kecoh kat atas.. hahaha al-maklum laa ta de org sgt kt atas tu jadi SUKE ATI KAMI lerrr... jadi aku pon mula la amek "oder" memasing nk mkn ape *ehh baya sendiri eh ta belanja* bla bla bla.. ade la dekat 15 minit nk decide memasing makan ape.. *bapak lame nk pikir korg nes!!*  aku pon turun la bawah dgn Cik Yana buat oder kt akak kaunter tu.. *jengjengjen* naik pening minah tu dgn oder yg bnyk.. haha tp taraaappaaa chill jerk.. oder siap aku halo org kat atas suh turun amek makan *bnyk chantek nk dok goyang kaki meh amek tray kt bawah ni!*



hehehe... its makan time!!!


haaaa.. da dapat makan pon bising jugak? adoiilaaa sungguh kekanak ribena terencat umo..  kami orang ni.. semua cerita masok bab belaja, bab keje n jeng jeng *bab kawin pn masok* memasing dok main touch sape kawen dulu and kite org semua VOTE utk LIYANA RAMLI kawen dulu hahaha.. *jgn mara aa Cik Yana*
heee.... but it was a wonderful time together with them sbb mmg totally kecoh sgt2.. semua mmg riang ria hari 2.. it is a bless la org kata... lepas dah mkn kite org pon ape lagi.. pose la amek gambar wehh!! *glupp* tp ak x tau mana simpanan gambar2 tu sbb xde dgn aku sobb sobb :( ... jadi sikit je la yg aku dapat masukkan..

Hey! paparadzi!! Stop following me!!! *kata Putri* hakhakhak....

Sedapnyeee Mcflurry oreo nih.. *mau mau?* g beli sendirik!! hahaha....

heeee.. habis suda kisah Mcd hahaha.. so Cik Yana no worries aku lama lagi ade lagi sebulan sblm aku balik kedah apa lagi jom melepak!!! hahaha.. k chowww.. aku da penat nk tulis... papaiii....

p/s: rindu gila kt budak2 lama....

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

BerLalu SebLum TerLambaT...

biasenye orang raya dengan sangat2 gembira tp aku? ak x tau knp raya aidil adha kali ni berbeza, ak rase sakit, terluka tiba2.. hell why should i feel this pain? why must ak compare 2 org lelaki yg berbeza? si B dan si H ak x tau mcm mana perasaan ak masa ni. betol B dulu pernah buat ak menangis, saat tu ak sorg, tp bila H muncul semua jd lain, ak macam dpt semangat baru.. but when my friend said "BACK OFF BEFORE ITS TO LATE" ak rase mcm ade yg x kena. Still ak stay dgn dia, but hell pg ni ak bangun tgk sesuatu kt pic FB dia, satu coretan luahan hati dia.. if you were his gf you should be happy to read all that thing but not me.. i was crying all night long and I can't even sleep, why is this happened? I've got NO IDEA bout it.. Ak rase mcm dia hiding something dr aku.. tp ape? we just new in this relationship.. should i walk away before its too late? or should i stay?

Ya Allah, this thing is to pain for me.. too much pain I've got for this 4 years, i try to rebuild my strengths and I need your guide to be strong Ya Rab, Help me with your Guidance cuz am lost without you.. Ya Rahim, if he really not mean for me please take this feelings away from me, Guide me ya rab, guide me from be too far from you, guide me to be better for you..

Allah menghapuskan apa jua yang dikehendakiNya dan Dia juga menetapkan apa jua yang dikehendakinya dan (ingatlah) pada sisiNya ada "Ibu segala suratan".  Ar-Ra'd (39)



Saturday, October 30, 2010

Let Them Talk.....

What Ever They Want To Say About You..
What Ever They Want To Talk About You..
Never Listen To Them..
Cuz Deep Down Inside You..
You Know Better Then They Do..
They Talk By What They See..
And What They Said Is All About The Bullshitness..
And You Know Bout That..
So Let Them Be..
Let Them Say What Ever They Want..
Let Them Talk What Ever They Think They Are Right..
Cuz You Know Bout Your Self Better Than Others Do..
It Is Their Judgment..
So Let Them Be..
Because They Are Only Bluebottle In Our Lives, In Your Lives...

cuti sem dah nak mula!!!!!

i said "woooweeeee... cuti sem da nak mulaaaa"
hahaha.. and that is my intro.. super duper kinda like helly belly kanak2 terencat umo kan? hahaha but who cares? no body cares at all.. its my blog anyway.. yippi dabidabiduuu...

Bila cakap pasal cuti "SEM" banyak lah hamba Allah yg akan mula mencarik aktiviti baru sempena kehadiran cuti yang agak la lama nih.. well not that long la its only 1 month and half i guess.. hahaha...iskkk tetiba jerk nak jadi macam budak tadika terencat umo.. macam tak penah pulak cuti kan sebelom ni.. ehehehe.. tp tu la tu kalo dah dapat cuti haihh mmg super duper seronok habis macam2 dalam pala otak nih pikir sepanjang cuti nih, kejer? jenjalan dgn family? reunion dgn bdk2 kelas lama semua ada.. hope so la lepas ni dapat jumpa semua org after tertangguh berbulan2 lamanye.. hell i miss them so much.. super duper.. hahhaa..

bila cuti "sem" bermula maksudnye satu sem dah bakal berakhir.. dan banyaknyelahhh kenangan mase sem ni.. mase awal2 masok kelas, start cuti penggal, puasa, raya and mereka buat suprise utk birthday saya sungguh saya terharu!! hahaha.. and bukan tu saja sbb banyak lagi la benda yang kami buat.. hahaha... zaman2 jalan reramai.. adess.. tah kenapa tah rase sayu pon ada at the same time "HAPPY" sbb tau satu sem dah berjaya di harungi biapon mase memua i feel wow so la very the susah.. hahaha... but thanks ALLAH for make it easy for me.. and yes i start to have a happy life here as a student.. jalan sana sini..

bak kata halovate "live well or live hell" and its "my choice" hahaha... so what ever things that comes i have to through it although it though aite? 

balik balik cite cuti sem nih.. ape lagi masa untuk merongeng (bak kata cikgu sejarah dulu) beramai2 haha... ni la masa nk kumpul kengkawan lama bile lagi nak jumpa... sbb skang seme tgh cuti hehee... nak jenjalan reramai...
tapi vacation pegi kuala perlis hari 2 mmg sgt2 best.. thanks to my beloved class mates la yaya (as tour guide) and shud, kecik and ika sbb nk ikot aku yg masa tu macam org  gila kusut kepala.. haha nnt kita jenjalan lagi keh? 

dah aku da ta tau nk merapu meraban ape dah ni haha... chow luk....





Friday, October 8, 2010

Do w3 ReaLly haVe t0 teLl thE wHoLe WorLd?

hey people!!!..
it's been a while i guess i didn't post any new thing being busy with asgmnts of course!!
lots of new things that i've been learn since i've been here.. where else if not KEDAH.. 
people with lots of "cekadak n perangai" but there's got one thing that i wanted to ask.. do we really have to tell the world about what we do everyday in our life? do we really have to show how good are we? YES SOLAT itu tiang agama, Al-Quran & Sunnah itu pensuluh jalan utk ke syurga.. but can't "YOU" ever thing wht do people feel when  you keep posting the same thing on and on? keep saying that you were good in this and that? can't you ever open up ur eyes and look at other people's feeling about what you have said? "DEAR" it is true that we have to do what we have to do as muslim in our life with our obligation to the almighty ALLAH SWT.. but jadikan setiap apa yg kita lakukan seikhlas mungkin...
don't have to tell the whole world bout what you do..
don't you know that religion is the most sensitive thing in our people life?
grow up please.. TAK GUNA BERKATA TENTANG AGAMA SEKIRANYA KITA MASIH BUAT MAKSIAT!!! TAK GUNA BACA AL-QURAN, HADIS, BANGUN 1/3 MLM TERAKHIR SEKIRANYA MASIH BERDUA2AN ANTARA LELAKI DAN PEREMPUAN YG BKN MUHRIM.. BKNKAH ITU MAKSIAT NAMANYA? BKN KAN ITU DOSA NAMANYA? yes kamu solat, mengaji dan kamu lakukan perkara2 sunnat.. tp kamu ttp lupa ttg MAKSIAT yg sentiasa ada di sekeliling kamu...


ikhlaskah hati kamu dalam beribadah? benarkah kamu mecintai ALLAH dan MUHAMMAD sepertimana yg kamu katakan?  

JGN PERNAH LUPA FIRMAN ALLAH:-

"Allah menghapuskan apa jua yang dikehendakiNya dan Ia juga menetapkan apa jua yang dikehendakinya. Dan (ingatlah) pada sisiNya ada “Ibu segala suratan”. "


 ar-ra'd:39

fikirlah apa yang anda lakukan.. IKHLASKAN hati dlm ibadah.. jgn bg tau org ttg ape yg kita lakukan atau amalan itu akan menjadi amalan yg sia2... 

smpai sini je kite jumpe lagi ye :) happy day all...



Sunday, August 15, 2010

5th ramadhan

grrr...tak sempat nak cerita pasal first ramadhan cuz i was away back to my home town in kl...
berpuasa with my family there for the first day until the 4th day(dpt sahur sama je la hari tu pon) cuz masa buka puasa dah dkt kedah...
it is a long journey KL-Kedah it takes about 6 hours sitting in the bus doing nothing n totally am tired with that kind of journey during this ramadhan.. but i don't want to talk about the 4th ramadhan cuz i want to talk about what happened at the 5th ramadhan.

5th Ramadhan...
it is a tiring and hectic day.. first day sahur without my family kind da sad of course... plus sakit perut pagi sahur tu makes my day feel more awful! went to college meet my classmate and of course still feel a lil bit sad inside me Y? i don't even know the reasons y... and there's got 2 persons that make me feel like arghhhh... @#$% cuz they make me pissed off them.. huwaaaa never though am going 2 meet this kind off person but still i meet them.. still having gastric and migraine at that evening and i can't hold it anymore went to the neares clinic  have an injection for my gastric and of course a medical to eat.. thanks to my classmate for bring me there :D at the hostel i started to cry.. missing back home so much.. i don't noe why but i just don't feel to good with this ramadhan.. call my parents and talk to them and alhamdulillah feel much3x.. better after that :D ...
 insya'allah am going to make it through today.. i won't easily give up.. no more tears.. cried once to let go what i feel inside but i won't cry for the second time... thank's mak, ayah for giving me the spirit...

Thursday, August 12, 2010

hello diary :D

Bismillahirahmanirahim..

at last i could find a time to spend some space with blogs and so.. 
well first of all welcome to my blogs may be this is the first thing to be as "mukadimah" but will find some time to talk and share anything with all of you.. insya'allah.. (^^,)